Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I am Never Easy with the Rain

This gray-dripping day seeps
itself into the tight skin
of my heart,
muddying my daydreams like many
strokes of watercolor,
mixed, puddled--
a grayer rainbow on a plastic tray.

Heavy,
I sat at the computer this afternoon,
clicked on a photo my brother took
where you gasp
and you squeal
and squint
and laugh
where you're held
inside your grandma's smiling arms

a sprinkler flings droplets of water
like thin quick freckles on your skin

and carefree ecstasy
brushed brightly upon your face
I envy
these reminding moments you give my young brother
that your life is still sensuously enjoyed,
that you are pure, and still small--

that you are his.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Gibson Girl

I was at one of my favorite local coffee shops, chatting away with a snarky, black-haired,black-booted barrista when I noticed an intriguing tattoo on her forearm.  There was this beautiful Gibson Girl growing out of a rose.  It was stunning.  Really, honestly stunning.

"That's a gorgeous tattoo," I said, handing over a twenty dollar bill, admiring the work of whoever had been her artist.  "I love the Gibson girl--that Victorian ideal of feminine youth."

"I love her, too," my coffee girl beamed as she readied my latte.  "I've always thought she is so classy, so très chic and soooo pretty.  Who wouldn't want a girl like her on their arm?"

"Pretty girls weren't meant to hang on everyone's arm, darling," I teased,  "but I sure can admire a fine specimen when I see one and it looks like you are one lucky lady."

We laughed and she gave me my coffee and my change.  I smiled every time I thought about her.  I hope she smiled all day, too.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Little Asian Children

I never imagined I'd spend every day of my life with Asian classmates or Asian professors, but I should've guessed. I'm a music student in the US. Conservatories and schools are full with with promising young students from the Orient. Competitions are won every weekend, and the prizewinners? Soloists from Taiwan, Japan, Korea and China whose note-perfect renditions of Lizst's Transcendental Etudes and Chopin's Ballades and Mozart's Sonatas and Bach's Fugues leave anyone who listened breathless, yet often emotionally unmoved.

My professor, Dr. Yang, has a six-year old student name Richie. I'm not sure what his ethnic heritage is, but he is a beautiful little black-haird, almond eyed little boy. He'll probably be the next Mozart. He played a Haydn Concerto for me today, and I was so impressed by his playing. I think I was even more impressed, though, when he and his 2-year old brother were running past me and some string-playing friends, chasing and laughing at each other in their own little language, an amalgamation of something like Cantonese and English.

They were so full of joy. They were so innocently happy. I remembered how some things make life sweet.

Even though Richie will probably be competing against my own future students and winning state and national competitions, both he and his little brother made me want to figure out how to have my own little ones, someday, running down the hall of some music school, making tired conservatory students smile.

been a while...

because i'm tired. healthy and happy, yes, but sooo busy, and thus, tired. Maybe because I'm learning this.



working on some ideas for posts, though. i'll write something soon.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

One of My Favorite Christmas Poems

Journey of the Magi
T.S. Eliot

A cold coming we had of it,
Just the worst time of the year
For a journey, and such a long journey:
The ways deep and the weather sharp,
The very dead of winter.
And the camels galled, sore-footed, refractory,
Lying down in the melting snow.
There were times we regretted
The summer palaces on slopes, the terraces,
And the silken girls bringing sherbet.
Then the camel men cursing and grumbling
And running away, and wanting their liquor and women,
And the night-fires going out, and the lack of shelters,
And the cities hostile and the towns unfriendly
And the villages dirty, and charging high prices:
A hard time we had of it.
At the end we preferred to travel all night,
Sleeping in snatches,
With the voices singing in our ears, saying
That this was all folly.

Then at dawn we came down to a temperate valley,
Wet, below the snow line, smelling of vegetation;
With a running stream and a water-mill beating the darkness,
And three trees on the low sky,
And an old white horse galloped away in the meadow.
Then we came to a tavern with vine-leaves over the lintel,
Six hands at an open door dicing for pieces of silver,
And feet kicking the empty wine-skins.
But there was no information, and so we continued
And arrived at evening, not a moment too soon
Finding the place; it was (you may say) satisfactory.

All this was a long time ago, I remember,
And I would do it again, but set down
This set down
This: were we lead all that way for
Birth or Death? There was a Birth, certainly,
We had evidence and no doubt. I have seen birth and death,
But had thought they were different; this Birth was
Hard and bitter agony for us, like Death, our death.
We returned to our places, these Kingdoms,
But no longer at ease here, in the old dispensation,
With an alien people clutching their gods.
I should be glad of another death.

Monday, December 13, 2010